Tension (Behavior Modification)
Tension pervades our many encounters
from day to day as we mingle and mix
many stride firmly with belief,
but many others are doubters.
quite a challenge, quite difficult to fix
all the troubles around me and all the grief
Or maybe I am projecting my own inner fear
my own worries, which I hold so dear?
Is the angst out there, or is it just in my head
am I closed to the world, paralyzed with dread.
A strange comfort and control I get from this play
from projecting on to others what I think they will say
Means I need not listen, and can create my own drama
my own little story, in an enveloping panorama.
Roles are there for all, to conform to what I expect
selfish and hate-filled, and for me, no respect.
Quite a victim I have made here for myself
out of the shadows from a past of ill health
torment and frustration,
hate bubbling away
anger taking sway
of my own personality
my own cosy reality.
Maybe I have got the world wrong
maybe it does not mirror my song
tension need not be maintained
and dignity can still be retained
A smile disarms us, breaks through our insulation
leaves us open to a new sort of contemplation
A friendly word, a relaxed behavioral motion
a welcoming gesture, a new kind of emotion
an opening up from deep within
from the pits of the stomach, the source of our sin
now more composed,
more mildly disposed,
a new mood, a new reflection
a new hope, a new direction.